What it's about

This is my blog about my open heart. Since going to conference I feel like I have been going through a major open heart surgery along with assaults on my mind and family. I don't know how this blog will actually turn out it may be short lived or I may only post every once and awhile or I may post everyday. I am just using it for a type of journal but I wanted to share it because one of the things I have been strugging with is trying to be perfect. (I'm not talking perfect like never messing up or not having any flaws i'm talking about the kind of perfection where I am always trying to measure up or be just like the people I admire) I want the people that view my life as always having it all together to see that... I don't have it all together... slowley I am learning that niether do the people I admire. I am learning that we are all imperfect. We all have to grow and we all have to call on God to help us. (and believe me the people that know me best and are closest to me know how much of a mess I am sometimes...only sometimes LOL) I hope I am not jumping around to much for anyone to understand what I am saying like I said this is a journal I am just trying to type what is in my heart. I want to say before I go on any more that this is not some kind of soul searching journey. I already know where I belong...you will not find a rainbow at the end of this page or find out I am some kind of secret lesbian. So with all this being said I will have to post my first open heart surgery post tomorrow. My kids are all awake now and I am not able to type when six precious little bodies are all demanding something from me. And please sign up as a follower so I know who and how many people are reading, this way I will know to keep my post public or private.