How big God really is!

This is possibly the shortest post I have ever done but I just wanted to make a real quick note about how big God really is.
Isaiah 40:12-40:31 Is an amazing picture at who God really is. It speaks of how powerful and imcomparable he is.
My favorite verse out of this chapter is: Look up into the heavens who created all the stars? He brings them out like an army, one after another, calling each by its name. Because of his GREAT POWER and INCOMPARABLE STRENGTH not a single one is missing.

Exercise for the body and Exercise for the soul

I have just began exercising almost everyday of the week. I am not the kind of person that can do the same boring exercise over and over until I know it by heart, I like to really push my self to my limits everyday. The effect it's had on my body are amazing. However if I don't exercise everyday and miss a day I really pay for it the next day. All this got me to think about the exercising that I need to do for my soul everyday. If I don't then I get spiritually lazy and pay for it. I know this is all elementary but sometimes I need to be reminded how important it is too poor my heart out to God everyday and too read his Word everyday, read it like he is telling me something, to stop and think. What is he saying? What can I learn from this chapter?
I just now am starting to understand that the battle has already been won for me. The powers of darkness cannot stand against me with God on my side, they are to back off if I resist them. There is so much power in knowing this...it's like a all new dimension. It makes me want to not be spiritually lazy so that I can fight harder against the devil. It challenges me to look at every situation through a differant pair of eyes so that I can see the spiritual battle taking place. There are so many everyday situations that come and I would just think this is just the way things are right now, but seeing them from this new dimension I see that there is something spiritual behind so much of my everyday happenings. Things like anxiety, depression, sickness, sick kids, and so called normal everyday stuff. Anxiety and depression is one of the biggest tools of the devil. I have seen him use this card so much in my immediate family. But the victory has already been won. So why do I let my flesh lead me into temptations of worry and doubt. I hate watching my children get assaulted, lately there have been a lot. Normally my response would be to pray, but not with a fighting attitude. To lay down and whine instead of resist the devil.
Last night Gavin had a stomach ache right before bed, which has been happening a lot to all of my kids. I don't think it's just a coincidence that they get stomach aches all the time. It is a total assualt. So after I got out of bed for the third time last night to comfort Gav. because of his stomach hurting. I got mad! Picked up my pillow and crawled in bed with him held his little body close and prayed hard, prayed against assualts and tormenting spirits and continued to everytime he woke up. I slept all night with him and the third time of praying I asked if his stomach felt better. He said yes and fell fast asleep and didn't wake up again untill morning. I relized I didn't get mad like it was an anger issue. But it was something that God rised up in me.
Ephesians 6:12 says, For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly relms. I have always loved this verse but it never REALLY hit me that JESUS not us has won the victory. Another guy put it like this. Each time your spirit goes under and faints in the trials which come to you, you lose mastery over the powers of darkness; you get below them instead of abiding above them in God, Every time you take the earth standpoint, you take a place below the powers of darkness. The matery of them depends on your spirit's abiding in the place above them, and the place above them means knowing God's outlook, God's thought, God's plan, God's ways, by abiding with christ in God.

My conviction

I was reading in the book of Isaiah and a verse really stuck out at me. Before I write about my convictions I am going to state that Im not the kind of person that is going to pretend like I know what something means when I don't really know the meaning. So in writing this I am just stating my convictions and what I felt when reading in Gods word. Anyhoot I was reading Isaiah chp.31 verse 1 Woe to those who go down t Egypt for help, and rely on horses and trust in chariots because they are many and horesman because they are very strong, but do not look to the holy one of Isreal, nor seek the Lord. While reading this I was translating in my mind exactly what God was speaking to me. Because I have been going through some health issues I just really feel like God was telling me to trust in him for my health and healing (i am not discrediting docters, I totally feel that people should go to the docter. but ultimatly we have to trust God) it is so easy to get wrapped up in only trusting the medical world( rely on horsed and trust in chariots) there are so many docters and they have came a long way in knowledge ( because they are many and horesman because they are strong) even though they are very smart they are not the healer/deliver ( but do not look to the holy one of Isreal nor seek the Lord)
I am not sure If I am interpating this verse right if i am not feel free to correct me by leaving a comment (please don't correct my spelling errors I know there are many LOL) This could apply to anyone what is it that you are seeking that is of the world instead of seeking God for? Finances, healing, counseling.

Taking notes

This blog has not died. I have just been really busy. I came across a journal that I used to take notes in when listening to a sermon. I am going to try to post them here every day mostly because it will give me something to think and ponder on daily. So here it goes for the first one:

My pastor named this sermon THE BODY OF CHRIST ephesians chp. 5 v25:

We are to represent Jesus in the world, In all that we do, every action, everything we say, the way we look.
We criple the body of christ when we don't show up for church because were all a part of the body.
1 chorinthians chp 3 v16
acts 17 v 24
1 kings chp 8 v7
We are the building of God, God is in our heart
1 peter chp 2 v1-5
God sees things we can't see so when he asks us to do something we need to do it.
Jonah chp1
Humble yourself before God and repent (I have sinned for I did not know you stood in front of me)

Judgment day

I had a post on my other blog about a book I am reading ("The Rapture" by Tim Lahay) this book is incredible very detailed in what exactly what is going to happen in the end times, rapture, tribulation, and glorius appearing. Which is good because most of the time I am not a very detailed person. In one of the chapters the author is talking about the judgment seat of christ and how every christian is going to be judged for what they have done in/with there christian life (since savation). Well because there has to be time for millions of people to go through the judgment and marriage supper, it happens while the world is going through the 7 year tribulation period. All along I visioned that every one would be judged just as fast as we got raptured (in a twinkling of and eye) but oh no it is not this way. Since reading this book my vision goes more like this.
We are just chillin all of a sudden we get raptured which IS going to be in the twinkling of a eye then instead of being judged quickly. We will each have our own special little meeting with our heavenly father. I can see if now "Cassie pull up a chair lets review your book" then we will review everything....every good thing I have done since salvation, everything I have spent my time on, everytime I obeyed when I was spoken to EVERYTHING. I am not sure if this is exactly how it will go either but I know it's alot closer to the way I had it visioned before. I don't know about anyone else but it really makes me nervous. Even being a christian it makes me want to push through even harder, to die to myself a little bit more and to repent once again for all those sins that God has buried in the ocean as well as all the sins that we strugle with daily. To know that I will be face to face with our creator reveiwing my life gives me a healthy fear that I am glad to have.

A pillar

Right before and right after conference I found myself asking God what am I here for God? What is your purpose with me? I am always very moved to do something GREAT and BIG for you God but when it comes down to it. I never now what that great or big thing is that I should be doing for you then I just end up discouraged.
A while back I heard a sermon on being a pillar in the church and I really felt like God was speaking to my heart about it. I didn't exactly know what a pillar was, I new that it had something to do with the foundation of a building. And it didn't sound like it was a very BIG or Great thing to be for God.
I just looked up the meaning of pillar in the dictionary to my astonishment it means the support of a structure or monument of a structure.

Pil-lar: 1 A slender or vertical structure used as a support or monument; 2 A main support of something.

I'm shocked because when I was at conference the sermon that hit home was a sermon on monuments. And how every miracle God has done should be remembered as a monument. This is the stucture God wants me to have so that I can be a good pillar(a support for other people) in his church because without pillars the building will fall. So even though I am not musicly gifted, I am not a pastors wife nor does my husband have a calling to be a pastor I still have a wonderful spot in the kingdom of God. When I was not saved I had no spot anywhere no matter what degrees I had (only a beauty school one) or who I knew or how good I tried to be I still always felt like I had no place in the world. Now that I am saved and know the goodness of God I have a great place and am more than happy to have it.

What it's about

This is my blog about my open heart. Since going to conference I feel like I have been going through a major open heart surgery along with assaults on my mind and family. I don't know how this blog will actually turn out it may be short lived or I may only post every once and awhile or I may post everyday. I am just using it for a type of journal but I wanted to share it because one of the things I have been strugging with is trying to be perfect. (I'm not talking perfect like never messing up or not having any flaws i'm talking about the kind of perfection where I am always trying to measure up or be just like the people I admire) I want the people that view my life as always having it all together to see that... I don't have it all together... slowley I am learning that niether do the people I admire. I am learning that we are all imperfect. We all have to grow and we all have to call on God to help us. (and believe me the people that know me best and are closest to me know how much of a mess I am sometimes...only sometimes LOL) I hope I am not jumping around to much for anyone to understand what I am saying like I said this is a journal I am just trying to type what is in my heart. I want to say before I go on any more that this is not some kind of soul searching journey. I already know where I belong...you will not find a rainbow at the end of this page or find out I am some kind of secret lesbian. So with all this being said I will have to post my first open heart surgery post tomorrow. My kids are all awake now and I am not able to type when six precious little bodies are all demanding something from me. And please sign up as a follower so I know who and how many people are reading, this way I will know to keep my post public or private.